it's been 6 months and i still miss himit's been 6 months and i still miss him

I saw him suffer from A to Z It was extremely difficult. Dana Frost is a writer and the founder of the Forced Joy Project (http://www.forcedjoyproject.com). I tried to check his pulse on the neck but did not feel it. As you are aware, the sadness will diminish soon from your recent trip. I touched his feet, then his forehead and felt he was cold, his eyes were lifeless and dry, his mouth was opened, arms and wrists bruised from iv lines. It still feels so terrible. It's been 6 months since my husband passed that horrible Sunday morning. The loss of your road trip companion. Whatever journey youre on, you can trust Beyond to help you make the best decision. He had always been so healthy and tough and invincible and I genuinely thought that he would live up to 80, to see me getting married and to spoil his first grandchildren. I spend nights out in clubs because its the only place they did not go. I thank you for leaving me the scripture in the room, it means a lot. Ive also gone back and punished myself mentally for all the times that I wasnt the perfect daughter, or when I was mean to my dad. Back to work 3 weeks after. But reading your article helped me realize that a lot of the emotions Im feeling are normal, and that my dad will always be a part of my life. I had a meltdown. I try my best to occupy my mind with anything else but him. Youre right about the rawness of it all. I have never been in a relationship and I feel so dysfunctional. People treat you weird and the ones that have not experienced it usually avoid me because they dont want to see what the future looks like. My dad killed my mom and then killed himself. I cannot go the mountain again, I cannot go to Opera again, I cannot ski, I cannot visit places, I cannot eat cakes because I remember them. Life will never be the same anymore. Uhh, I stumbled over my response, caught off guard by the question. Know you are not alone, Hey i lost my dad 3 years ago and Im still lost an like you said grief is hard very hard. I just dont know how to cope fully. Side note my dad was in the army. Good post. Ive lived it over and over again. I have become numb from losing the three main men in my life. We talked as much as we could, he tried to make me laugh and then he asked are you going to miss me?? Then I searched for how to handle loss of a parent. Ive Beverly felt scared, lost and unsafe before but nos Its unbarable. From fiction & rituals to truth & glories For you it just happened. Im really glad to know most of these feelings are normal. is it normal to still miss them after 8 months? : r/ExNoContact - Reddit There is a long way I have to travel. It doesnt make the pain of losing him easier, sometimes it makes the pain worse. I had a doctors appt today at 4pm and my dad woke me up and made sure I was awake at 2pm. Fathers Day is hard and I expect his birthday will be (and is for you) and our birthdays too. Im just glad to see Im not alone in all this! I hope I am not alone in this. 4 years later and I have an amazing little boy and husband but just miss my dad so much everyday. I deal with overwhelming sadness. My dad was the most strong person ive ever met but saddly he didnt like to show his appreciation, it isnt like he didnt love me, but sometimes i feel frustrated because of it, id give it all just for a good hug i totally miss him ive never thought this could happen so soon in my life. I had just seen my father the night before when he was sent to the hospital while working at his company. maybe by going for a meal or something. He went into an emergency surgery. I took care of her for 20yrs and the last 7yrs her condition worsened,of course I knew her time was coming but mom was a strong woman, and whatever mom said I believed no question asked! Every once in a while I search the internet to see how others have coped. I genuinely feel for anyone who feels they have no one to talk to. So true almost 1 year since my dad passed away now already. My moms brothers wife passed months after that. But I dont know how I should feel. God bless you all. My Dad passed away 2years ago and I cant get over that I wasnt there when he passed away. I appreciate this person and understand they arent my parent but that longing is so powerful. The pain I feel is so very strong so painful, every day. I didnt realize how much importance I placed on seeing my Father happy when I brought him joy. There is a panel of scientists, neurologists, phycologists etc that are studying NDEs (near death experiences) as they call them since many people were afraid to tell their stories for so long, but slowly people are coming forward since the 1970s to tell their stories. Been having dreams about him telling me, he loves me and that whenever I need to get something off my chest,just talk because I can hear you I am 29 and will give birth in 2 months to the first grandchild in the family. My dad is my everything. It helps. I always had fight with my mom and it makes my father geel really bad. I think about how Im going to deal with this the rest of my life when I need him or things happen and I dont have answers. I feel selfish, needy, sad, depressed and so lonely. Despite feeling mostly ready and even a little excited to begin this new chapter, I did still worry what others would think. It's been 6 months since when we don't see each other. Im a grown man that cant function.I wish you people knew him. I lost my dad 1 year ago but it feels like yesterday. I know they are in a better place and I do hope I will see them again one day. I couldnt imagine taking them off, I admitted, truthfully. Inf. This brought family closer, yet farther from each other. But sometimes, when someone talk about my dad, my heart aches at that time. Its been a rollercoaster of emotions, mostly sadness. I dont really have someone in daily life to talk to who can understand my emotions, so this makes me feel less lonely. Thank you Lord, thank you! He was my best friend, and no one else on Earth loves and believes in me the way he did. I just lost my Dad 14 days ago? I spent a lot of time drinking, taking cocaine and smoking ridiculous amount of weed. I wonder if it ever gets better. He was 58 years old and I was 28. My dad died less than 3 days ago. They dont know what to say or how to handle it. At that time I just told myself he was going to be okay everything would end up all fine and he would come home. This is a hard thing for everyone no matter the age or relationship. Its like it feels like it happened yesterday and this pain is unbearable. And I do. Kind. My father also passed away end of April with Covid-19. Sometimes I speak to my dad and tell him just how much I love him and miss him and just hope that he can hear me .! I want to be able to love again. But it has gotten better over the years. This hits home 100% i am the oldest sister. I ran back inside to get my brother (hed just turned 5 on July 1st (1981) exactly 2 1/2 months to the day prior to that. I am almost 60 now and I still miss him, but he is in my future he became a Christian and I know hes in heaven waiting for us all. Would love prayers and suggestions on how you have made it through. Not gotten any easier. I sometimes forget how to control myself and emotions and everything falls apart, but thats a part of life. Im 24 and I lost my Dad 5 years ago today. The feeling is still difficult and raw to feel what is my future going to look like without my father in pictures. I needed to see that thats okay. I lost my dad last week. Everything was great. And when you cant, that you give yourself permission to mourn losing him. My mother may not permit me to do it. Everyday I get reminded of how I used fight and argue with him for silly things and unable to forgive myself. They can also help you find in-person bereavement support in your area, and help you broach the subject with friends and family. We certainly all should seek comfort in each others stories and know that we are in no way suffering alone with loss. So my sister and I went into the hospital to see him one last time. Im 21 and i have just lost my dad and i was so numb in beginning but as days pass i feel so much more pain because im smallest one in my siblings yet i feel so much pain day by day but i cannot cry front of my mom to keep her strong so i cry quietly in my room, Hi I m Jyoti My youngest daughter was born on the anniversary of my Dads death. Im 18 years old and today 6 weeks ago I lost my dad and I have no idea how to cope I miss him so much and am still in disbelieve, it feels so unreal. The pain will never go away and I need to learn to live the new normal. When he first left us, all I could think about was his last few moments of life, replaying it over and over again in my mind. He really was a heaven sent dad. my mom passed when i was 11. im 13 now. So sorry McKenzie sending prayers to you and your family . It made it hard for me because I started worrying about everyone else and their losses. It was a strange thing to joke about when we were in our 20s and had our entire lives ahead of us, but thats how far from reality death was. By accepting all cookies, you agree to our use of cookies to deliver and maintain our services and site, improve the quality of Reddit, personalize Reddit content and advertising, and measure the effectiveness of advertising. I have to obey him so that he is at peace in Heaven. My husbands biological dad passed away 4 yrs after his mom. I wonder if anyone of you has similar feelings? This whole experience has been traumatic, one moment she was fine, and the next theres a doctor that comes to my house saying that theres nothing they can do but to shoot her up with morphine so that she can die as peacefully as possible, and telling me that Im the one who had to take care of her because the hospital wasnt going to waste a room and their staff on someone who wasnt worthed It was heartbreaking, and it sucked, having to watch her slowly die not being able to do anything. )as I reached my dad whod been shot all 6 times in the back he was still alive,but fading away fastly. The Advice I Wish I Got After My Son Died - Just Playing House i feel like i failed him. That day was supposed to be filled with happiness and excitement, yet i could barely walk down the stage to receive my diploma with breaking down in tears. He even has my Dads exact eye color. Please I hope that you dont feel sad for too long and find some enjoyment in life.please take care and look after yourselves. Today would have been his 81st birthday and its been a strange day: a mixture of hard and joyful. I dont know your mum, but I love my children no matter what. But I dont know how Im going to cope. It hurts so much and you never expect it because, you think, its your dad Hes invincible, nothing bad can happen to him because hes your dad But its a terrible truth that time doesnt stop for anyone My heart will forever ache for my father for the rest of my days This pain is unbearable; I wouldnt wish it on anyone. That hurts like hell. Thank you for letting me share this. His heart had stopped due to not getting enough oxygen to his lungs. You arent alone. I feel like just a kid holding on to my families name and memories, loss it hard. I go through listening to his voicemails and pictures to zoning out and watching old tv shows. When he passed I like the rest of you felt undone. Your email address will not be published. This post was comforting in this nightmare of an experience. Just trying to get though each minute. My heart goes out to you. Shortly after I left, the group was cancelled because of COVID 19. Its just so sad how life can end so suddenly. I always think about his calm nature and how he would handle situations, especially bringing up my children he was just a natural as a dad. I lost my beloved father yesterday. On the one hand, you may find comfort knowing that there's a better than good chance what you are experiencing is not a sign of a more significant problem. Nothing has filled the void. Even though I am still at the sadness stage of grief, I need to be strong for my self, dad, and brother. I am 49 he was 74. She never said harsh words . I meant wtf do you do when your dad just goes and jumps of a bridge. I smile to know I can drive by a field and know the crop thats growing, to change a tire, to know the chirp of a certain bird, how to fry fish, the short cuts of back roads where we grew up..and daily reminders of him from seeing a car of the same make/model/color, to hearing him sing like nat king cole, or a funny commercial on TV that he liked. In the middle of this pandemic, it did not help but to think of her this often what would be like if she was still around. I too feel depressed thinking about the milestones without him..:) Im so lost. I Miss My Ex: 4 Reasons Why You're Missing Them and How to Stop You will not regret contacting him. Nowadays im still 17 turning 18 soon. We finished that episode of the show we where watching. Like the original post I have developed an appreciation for all the good my father brought into my life. It's been six months since we left home. Mostly I was happy for her to finally be free of the emotional pain and physical struggles shed been suffering with. I cry a lot whenever am alone and feel like fighting a lot with almighty for all the suffering he gave to my papa. Thanks for everything from teaching me to throw a baseball, drive a car, learn to waterski, go to college, learn life lessons but providing a safety net, oh yea, how to navigate the stock market. Im not sure if my grief has really hit me yet or has it will my little cries be the only thing for me or will I explode one day?To what I read losing a parent is hard one day at a time is all I can say. I say lost. Its hard to see that in the beginning, when the loss feels so dark and heavy. Caring. Not sure if it helps since my tears still come and go, but my pain has lessened a bit, knowing he didnt and would never suffer much. I just wish to hear her voice or see her smile or to cuddle on the couch wit her as we always did. Eventually you see the painful waves coming that cause tears. Thank you I was afraid that I was being weak and foolish to cry when I am 59 and supposedly grown up. Please do feel free to email me and I look forward to speaking. It was completely unexpected and I was across the country when it happened. I know I was lucky to have 37 good years, and thats better than 36, however he was such a big part of my life, and my wife and childrens lives. No goodbyes. Great man and great dad. And this feels like some sort of dream. Thank you so much. And selfishly, I don't want to hear about how great their life is when I am suffering and just trying to get by. There is no way I can fill the loss I feel. I lost my mum and gran day after each other. Finding myself driving by all the houses we grew up in remembering. Unfortunaly each step of the way through treatment my dad kept it all to himself hes always been the head and strong one of the family he insisted he was ok no pain killers needed keep on hes fine, the hardest part was watching him go though chemo and all the treatments to find the tumors shrunk however 4 weeks later it grew bigger than ever before it was the most fastest strongest tumor and there wasnt anything they could do. My mum in Scotland. From stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I lost my father 37 years ago, due to a horribly horrific accident. Hi love doctors results are back its lung cancer dads not been to well for a while but didnt want to worry anyone. Im so sorry .Keep any memories alive . Not sure how im going to cope. After he died. Life there just wasnt the same as home. My dad died two weeks ago, and it hurts so much. We were all with him when he died, to be there for him and my Mum who held his hand until he stopped breathing. I dont think it matters what age you are when you lose a parent that you are so close to. I would be sooo thankful if he lived until I was 68yrs, I just lost my dad today I still cant believe it I dont feel mike he is gone I was just on the phone with him and making plans to come visit him then my mom tells me the worst possible news i could imagine I cried initially but now I dont really feel anything I really want to hope he is still here I wanna have that realization every thing feels like a daze. For anyone else out there this may be helpful for- I started writing in a journal as if I was writing to my dad. The loss of intimacy. I cannot believes that my Dad would go away so soon and this was really unexpected as my Dad had infections in the foot earlier also but this time the infection took my Dads life. I miss my Daddy he left me 14 years ago and the pain feels all the time is like yesterday. I lost my mother on June 20. It may help a little but I know that it will never be what it once was. These stories have brought me to tears! After writing my letter to dad this morning I guess many of You recognise that unpleasant feeling in the stomach that radiates outwards and never goes away. My mom who was always there for me was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer three months after the loss of my brother , her son . My brother flew here to help my sister and I with mom. My heart goes out to each one of you! I have 2 children who they thought the world of they have missed so much with them it hurts so much some times I feel I cant breath. Its so hard. Every friend around me is having their parents around. Ive fine through all possibel stagen of grief and sometimes I wonder of I ever can be whole again. Im so sorry for your loss. He died two days after the second appointment. No doubt, all of you. It has been the worst year of my life and Im miserable. It is extremly painfull, still. Although i have my siblings and my grandparents. But just remember you can only put on an act for so long. I have picture frames of them all over the house from the time they fell in love, to their marriage, to our lives together and pictures 3 years before both of their deaths. I relate so much to you and cried until the end reading this. I am always sad. Good luck to everybody that is experiencing this awful time. My Dad just died today. I still want to pivk up the phone and call him when I achieve something I know he would be proud of. I saw your response and had to reply to this. Comforting to know others are experiencing this. She reminds me the worst times of my life. I wasnt ready, however, the financial obligations do not stop. And who knows? Give yourself a little bit of credit for getting this far! My dad was a brave man, very determined to do the chemo. I am 42. Why, just why I never asked him much about all his incredible life? Or, what every information-seeker wants to hear: it depends. My mom and I still move on, but its not nearly the same. I just cant believe my father is gone. I havent burdened anyone with my struggles or grief. How do you even move on from a breakup like this? I had planned to have my bestfriend over for a movie night I never expected that I would lose her. Im 22. Would you like to have more someday? It really helps. The one without God his life is a mess I hope you stay strong and happy, I will try to do the same , I lost me beloved Dad last October 26th 2017 of an awful death with pancreatic cancer. I lost my dad 4 months ago. I dont think it ever gets better, you just learn to live with it. The last month of his life, when I brought him home from the facility, he was on a feeding tube and was barely 100 lbs. Do you have a bereavement story youd like to share? I lost my father recently and I feel so lost without him, he was my rock, he always helped me and anyone who asked out, he never thought about himself, such a selfless man. Thanks for sharing this its helpful but it still doesnt matter. Superhuman. I hope I can be strong enough for my siblings and my Mom and help them get thru their grief. This is all who dearly cherish their fathers for rest of their lives, always remember the ember they left behind for us to forge our lives forward, and live happier lives. I loss my dad in 2013 and my mom recently. My attitude is Get it Done. I still cant believe my father left me. May we all get through this together . Sandi, you will see your dad again. 21,691 days I spent with my dad. I was blessed to be with him when he passed. And he STILL loves you. Selfless. I was no stranger to death when my mom died, I had already lost all 4 grandparents, 2 close uncles & an aunt on my dads side (we werent close). I think that even since day one because Ive put on this face of I am okay that every one thinks that Im doing great but deep inside Im screaming for someone to realize that Im hurting inside so bad that its tearing me apart but instead, they have no clue and I honestly cant be angry at them for that but I also want to be like really people how would I be okay she was the only person I had left in my life and only person who I knew I could count on no matter what and she also lived right in front of me and I see her home every day. They just dont seem to hVe a clue which I am having trouble wrapping my head around but I cant be mad at them for this because every I know thinks Im fine because Ive allowed them to believe so so much that my own husband barley sees me upset and even then Ill say Im crying over something else but I think I am possibly angry with him and even might be holding it against him and I know that isnt any good either because once again I have allowed him to think that I am okay when I am definitely not okay. Also very angry with my mother. i lost my dad this April 20th he passed away by him self the people at that rebuildtion home didnt help him to call 911 for my dad he was 76 and choking. Nobody seems to care. This is the worst feeling imaginable. This was helpful. XX. )I woke him up & said come with me now..we walked to his bedroom window & looked outside & saw our dad Layin face up still clinging & fighting to stay alive.he rolled his head towards the window & he saw us.he immediately became almost @ peace & looked as if he accepted he was dyin,but once he saw us both together safe & sound. Feeling so empty. So I drove home. I lost my dad to COVID and I was in a different continent when he left this world. We lived in different parts of the world, he lived in Siberia in Russia, I lived in Malaysia which was under a lockdown at the moment of my Dads passing. Its OK to lose your composure, to have an outburst of emotion in public or privately at home or to completely fall apart. Thank u for what u wrote it did me good to night to read it tonight been one of nights thanks again, My name is Maggie Augustine. I am sooo sorry you lost your father. I dont want a big wedding because I dont know if Ill stop crying when that happens. I still suffer from anxiety and depression but its manageable now! Many prayers to all of you for losing your parents and all the pain you are going through! God bless you , Jackie & I do know that our mind are running around in heaven with no more pain its us who are still here that feel this great loss . I have a thousand other feelings: guilt about all the "I should haves", missing the tender times, missing the humor only we shared, gratitude for the wonderful man he was, etc. He was suffering from cancer. There was so many things left unsaid.. so many things we didnt get to do together. I want to go with my dad, but I remember I still have mum and sist. I wish I had one more day with him. And remember that Jesus and God love you even more than anyone else. in may this year i lost both my parents within 2 weeks of each other.i am heartbroken lost and struggle to get through each day,i also feel let down by family members with their lack of support,i feel so alone. I lost my dad less then a week ago to me it still seems unreal and I hope its all a bad dream your article gives me hope though that eventually I will come to terms with this an be able to remember the good times not just the day he left this earth. Even all these years later, at least 3-4 times a year I have a moment. I have been distraught and completely clueless as to what to do. lane thank you for sharing your story..i lost my father 2 weeks ago.when i heard from my elder brother that my father passed away,I felt guilty and i wanted to kill myself. God Bless all whose hearts are broken from losing a parent(s). My heart feels broken beyond repair. I used to talk to him about everything, he was truly one of a kind. Im not sure I can take this anymore, the guilt is so great. 15th October 2016 dad takes a bad turn, cancer has spread all over not long left a couple of hours spending hours makeing sure hes comfy giving everything he wants the random meals ice lollies were his fave at this point, mcmillan advised to give morphine end of life care. Today I also went thru the scenario of what if they were able to revive him, how much more pain and suffer he would have to go thru then. I lost my dad while on holiday 2 days into a UK and Paris trip. My dad was married with a kid and a career by this age. And the covid pandemic kept us from letting her hold the baby. So I felt the need to be the anchor I feel so alone bc none of my friends or cousins have lost a parent. Some people, especially those who lose their partners suddenly or unexpectedly, arent granted the luxury of this formal approval. The loss of your jar opener. Blown away by this article. I lost my Dad last month on Easter Sunday, the 12th April at 12:00 am. So I took my son to dennys for breakfast met his new girlfriend an during breakfast my son tells me mom you know about Grandpa an I said no what.He said he had stage 4 lung cancer,I was the last to find out.I was going through so many emotions right then,finding out that he had stage 4 lung cancer an he has known since March 2021,an the rest of the family had known to.At first I was mad at everyone for not saying anything,then I just couldnt wait to go talk to my mom.The next series of events happened so fast I am still trying to figure it out,an process it. been almost a year and i still miss him. fly high | TikTok Then an hour later my brother came home from work and said something has happened with dad and it looked like he was ready to cry. OpenSubtitles2018.v3. Im so sorry about your dad. Thanks so much. We take a lot of strength from our parents, so when you lose one of them, its crushing. Such a lo ing AND incredibly smart Dad. The sadness is unimaginable but it is so comforting to see Im not alone in this journey. Stay strong and holdfast to the common ground we all share, Im so sorry for your loss especially 2 parents Im finding it hard enough dealing with the loss of my dad 6 years ago this week. Maybe I should take down all my favorite photos. Anyway mom came with hospice on Thursday evening,she just kept telling me she was tired. I am 28. My life hasnt turned out the way I planned, and he was ultimately my safety blanket. Answer (1 of 14): This situation is a lot more common than you might think. My father is gone, and I cant believe it. This will happen both immediately and slowly, over time. I know it sounds crazy but I feel like its all because I cant grieve properly or I ever have right for my father. 6 months later I am still struggling to come to terms that I will never see him again, or hear his contagious laugh anymore, or sit next to him and chat and watch movies. Let me tell you, I most definitely cried like a baby. Im so sorry to hear that you lost your dad at such a young age. My dad also had a hard time demonstating his feeling, maybe because of the way he grew up. Perhaps you can find yourself in one or multiple of these instances: You miss your ex because . 5) This is probably the biggest.. Ive never felt so lost. I miss all of him. I have the promise that I will see my father again. As a family we were with him every day, for the entire 3 weeks of which it took until he met his unfortunate end in a hospice. I googled this cause I dont know how to respond or process this. I lost my dad may 11th feel like Im dying inside and pretending it hurts so much. I wrote earlier, but I think Id prefer to share this story. Honestly even now as the years go by Im slowly forgetting more and more of my childhood years since they dont seem quite real, like that was someone elses life and not my own. The day that he will say to you that he is so proud of you for being strong, living your life, and holding on to the faith you would be with him once more. Initially you might not feel anything. He died January 9th. Thank you for this. On November 25, 1999-Thanksgiving Day, I lost my Dad, my best friend, my mentor in life, my hero.